Where My Heart Used to Beat

Where My Heart Used to Beat

A Novel

eBook - 2016
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Robert, a British doctor haunted by World War II memories, agrees to write a biography of a renowned specialist in memory loss who possesses unsettling knowledge of Robert's past. By the best-selling author of Birdsong.

McMillan Palgrave

A sweeping drama about the madness of war and the power of love that marks acclaimed novelist Sebastian Faulks's return, after twenty years, to the fictional territory of his #1 international bestseller Birdsong

London, 1980. Robert Hendricks, an established psychiatrist and author, has so bottled up memories of his own wartime past that he is nearly sunk into a life of aloneness and depression. Out of the blue, a baffling letter arrives from one Dr. Alexander Pereira, a neurologist and a World War I veteran who claims to be an admirer of Robert's published work. The letter brings Robert to the older man's home on a rocky, secluded island off the south of France, and into tempests of memories--his childhood as a fatherless English boy, the carnage he witnessed and the wound he can't remember receiving as a young officer in World War II, and, above all, the great, devastating love of his life, an Italian woman, "L," whom he met during the war. As Robert's recollections pour forth, he's unsure whether they will lead to psychosis--or redemption. But Dr. Pereira knows. Profoundly affecting and masterfully told, Where My Heart Used to Beat sweeps through the 20th century, brilliantly interrogating the darkest corners of the human mind and bearing tender witness to the abiding strength of love.

Publisher: [S.l.] : Henry Holt and Co., 2016
ISBN: 9780805097337
Characteristics: 1 online resource
Additional Contributors: 3M Cloud Library


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Jan 13, 2018

Whatever happened to the author of "Birdsong"? I could not be interested in the protagonist of this novel, nor his conversations, and did not finish the book.

Jun 19, 2017

I'd give the last 10 pages or so 3 stars. The rest floats between 1 star and 2 stars.

The first two chapters are a complete and utter waste of time. They introduce you to the main character - a 60+ year old war veteran named Robert Hendricks who seems to have a lot of not particularly satisfying sex with hookers. Blech. (There's very little description; the "blech" is just because it's boring.)

In chapter 3, he arrives at the island of Dr. Perreira - which is where the book should have started. The book itself is rather disorganized. At times, it follows Robert around the rather isolated island. Most of the book, though, tells the story of his life - especially his time in the trenches in World War II. I think the visit with Dr. Perreira (who claims to be a friend of Hendricks' late father) was supposed to serve as a framing device, but it did a very poor job of organizing the memories.

Toward the end, there is some deviation toward the more interesting (to me) topic of mental illness, but nothing much of satisfaction is ever achieved. Maybe if the book had focused more on psychiatry and less on the day to day events of wartime, I would have enjoyed it more?

The two letters that end the book did their best to make up for the rest of the book. In retrospect, the whole novel was written to set up those letters. But it wasn't enough. The rest of the book was simply too dull for them to make up for.

Nov 25, 2015

Sebastian Faulks can be guaranteed to write well with feeling and insight.This story of a life lived during WWII and afterwards, all the influences on that life and the search for solutions is remarkable.Faulks, through his main characters, explores what little was known about Post Traumatic Stress disorder and the studies into psychiatry and treatment of mental illnesses. Impressive.


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